Counterpoint
Part 2
( Part
1 )
Middle school
was no more angst-ridden for Tria, the girl with the horn, than
it was for her classmates. One day, she was called to the girls’
restroom by her friend Madeline, whose track-marked tears gave
her face a zebra quality. Madeline—the shy white girl who
hit puberty first—washed her face clean with the bagged
soap in the rotting dispenser. She rose up to face Tria and held
back more tears. “I’m horrendous!” she yelled,
as if a teacher wasn’t squatting in the first stall to the
right of the sinks.
Tria never thought about it, but it was pretty rare that someone
came to her to discuss personal appearance issues. She could only
attribute her subsequent reactions to what she saw other people
do, so she reached out and wrapped her arms around Madeline, who
just continued crying, on Tria’s shoulder.
Sure, Madeline’s horrifying problem was a small, barely
noticeable zit just above her right eye, but if it was the end
of the world to her friend, it was the end of the world to Tria.
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There were
boys in Tria’s seventh grade class. Granted, there were
boys in Tria’s class every year, but it was the first year
there were boys in the carnal sense. One boy in particular made
Tria’s horn throb with a throb it never throbbed before.
She had a new throb and she knew that was something special.
His name was Jeremy. Jeremy Piper. He was cute, with blue eyes
and shaggy blonde hair, with a lip piercing that was obviously
fake but nobody cared. He was the class nomad, in a sense, moving
about in every form of transportation a boy his age could muster.
He’d ride his skateboard to school one day, roll in on roller
skates the next, scoot up with a scooter on Wednesday, pile out
of the backseat of his older brother’s car on Thursday,
and round out the week on a rocket pack or something. He usually
got in early on Fridays, so nobody knew for sure. In reality,
he just walked, but fast and early.
Tria liked the way he laughed sincerely at the teacher’s
puns, but then batted an angry eye at math class, remaining cool
and mysterious, like some kind of cigarette-less, approachable
James Dean. He would doodle endlessly in his notebook at times,
pass notes at others, and just stare blankly at the closet for
minutes on end. The closet door was shut, without even posters
hanging on it, but he would stare. Either something heavy was
going on inside his head or, more likely, nothing at all.
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On a Friday
in early autumn with an ungodly massive pile of leaves mounted
outside the classroom window, Jeremy talked to Tria, quickly,
about homework, and then brushed past her on his way out of the
classroom. The brush came dangerously close to Tria’s chest
and her horn felt like it was about to curl back up inside of
her, to sit in the corner and phone breathless calls to its friends.
She ran home fast that night and locked herself in her bedroom,
surrounded by pinups of actors and old art her grandmother gave
her, mostly knitted pictures of animals with some watercolors
thrown in. Falling backwards into bed, her horn erected toward
the sky, Tria tried to regain control of her breathing, in and
out, slowly, in, out, in, out. What she couldn’t control
was her horn, a throbbing mess of an appendage that wouldn’t
slow no matter the mediation or yoga or Maharishi maneuver.
Tria reached up, and touched it gently, hoping to force it into
a slowed state. Rather, the opposite happened and her touch energized
the horn, sending shock waves through her head, body, and out
her toes. It was pure pleasure, a feeling Tria had never experienced.
She touched the horn again, and then a few more times, and in
a sense effectively caused herself to orgasm for the first time.
It wasn’t quite the same as an orgasm from actual sexual
contact, but the pleasure the horn gave Tria was unprecedented
and would provide a fitting outlet for a young repressed girl
without much controversy for her eternal soul.
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Exactly three
weeks later, around mid-morning, when all the students weren’t
yet hungry for lunch but had lost any energy their sleep once
provided, the seventh graders took a short break and Madeline
confessed to Tria that she had an unobstructed, strawberry passion
red crush on Jeremy and that she had kissed him under the bleachers
with his unkempt shaggy hair fallen out of his eyes when he turned
to her, entirely to stare at her striking and obvious cleavage.
She came to school that day in a pink tank top with a thick white
shirt underneath, a mom-friendly turtle hiding in a seductive
shell. Of course, Madeline dropped the act, and the white shirt,
and found Jeremy under the bleachers after school, where his friends
normally smoked, but never him.
He kissed her back, and reached out shakily for the cleavage before
fearfully releasing and returning his arm to his side like a sadomasochistic
rat who had a taste of electricity, liked it, but couldn’t
sustain the pain.
Tria didn’t much respond and the topic of Jeremy disappeared
until high school, when his head grew into his hair and Tria’s
face filled out, almost giving her horn the illusion of an accessory,
a bright one that glowed much less and functioned much less independently,
but still throbbed and ached when the most intense physiological
feelings were conjured. Jeremy went back to his life of skateboards
and some homework and church on Christmas and Easter, while Madeline
and Tria giggled and read about young detectives and high school
girls.
Around mid-morning of a May day winding down freshman year, Madeline
and Tria walked the hallway, Tria not even noticing the random
upperclassmen stealing glances at the horn, some snickering, some
nodding in a strange agreement—Tria had always ignored her
dissenters. Jeremy was being scolded by the principal, an assumption
anyone could make thanks to a wagging finger and a head held down
shamefully.
“Think he’s okay?” asked Madeline. “Think
he had pot?”
He had started smoking pot.
Tria opened her locker, a surprisingly clean mess of books, dribbling
along the sides in perfect columns with a backpack wedged in the
middle, a case where the bookends are the books. “Probably,”
said Tria in a droll elevated whisper. “That’s pretty
much daily now.”
Dick, the dick in the letterman jacket, left tackle, laughed at
Jeremy, passed by him and pushed himself up behind Tria. As usual,
he shouted, “I’m horny!” and then cackled like
a slow witch and wandered down the hallway, aimlessly and aggressively.
Tria rolled her eyes.
“And nobody says a thing to Dick,” said Madeline,
adding a sigh and twirl of her ever-growing hair.
“Jeremy’s a good guy. Jesus, he’s on the debate
team.”
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Tria joined
the debate team first thing after her first steps through the
school doors the next morning, finding Mrs. Tallman, the debate
couch, proceeding down the hallway, arms struggling to hold the
tower of books and the open coffee mug. Mrs. Tallman said practice
was that evening, Tria was welcome to come, and please go away
until she’s had her coffee.
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Practicing debate felt to Tria a bit like practicing for an unidentifiable
natural disaster. You could go ahead and be prepared for anything,
but if it ends up being a meteor rocketing directly into your
face no amount of prep work would help.
Tria’s first time at team practice was spent mostly in confusion.
It started off well, with her finding the open seat closest to
Jeremy outside of a close circle of other borderline popular kids
and total losers—the potheads, she figured—the ones
that interact with the jocks and cheerleaders quite a bit, but
only in shadows, alleys and spirit.
The team was in the middle of a debate that began at the previous
practice, continuing the intramural squabble without reiterating
what each side was defending. One kid that Tria recognized from
Biology started off, talking about either stem cells or organic
farms, and after four minutes Mrs. Tallman put her hand in the
air and the student scrambled his speech, words spoken over words,
until he finished his argument exactly 60 seconds later. The next
kid started, a girl Tria had never seen before in her life, and
said something about whatever the other kid was talking about
that made everyone laugh. By this point, Tria had just begun staring
at the back of Jeremy’s head, wishing to be as close to
him as a horn. The debate ended, someone won, something else,
who knows.
Snapped back into action by the calling of her own name, Tria
looked up at Mrs. Tallman, who was motioning toward her, and suddenly
every head in the room turned to her, Jeremy’s included.
“Tria? Hello?” said Mrs. Tallman. “Did you want
to tell us anything about yourself?”
Tria nervously shook her head and caught Jeremy smirking at her.
It was a gentle smirk, but enough for Tria to feel a little too
alive in her own skin. Her horn blushed and she suddenly wondered
if, to Jeremy, she was just the girl with the horn.
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It seemed
like the other members of the debate team did not think much of
Tria’s horn, or even notice it enough to make comments.
They learned to respect her for her hard work, and the way she
could slip subtle jabs into her debates, making each of her most
scathing arguments pierce her competitors without them even noticing.
On abortion: “I see your point about how abortion gives
women the opportunity to be promiscuous, especially married women—you
know, the demographic that make up 60 percent of abortions—who
apparently like to sleep around with their husbands.”
On Hamlet: “Clearly, the king has nothing against Hamlet,
as most murderers are very well-balanced.”
On cell phone use in schools: “As there’s no doubt
everyone at this school is going to end up being a rocket scientist,
the more distractions the better.”
She was snarkier than she had known herself to be, but there’s
a degree of acting and characterization she was taking on when
she stood in front of the crowd. The comments were written by
her, but spoken by someone else. It was a give and take, the kind
a lifelong giver cherishes in small breaths.
Madeline did not talk to Tria as much as she once did. Debate
was a new, more interesting friend and Madeline couldn’t
compete with debate’s blonde, pierced avatar. It was becoming
painfully more obvious that Tria had feelings for Jeremy, so it
was likely best that Madeline kept her distance. Madeline never
even talked to Jeremy after the incident under the bleachers,
and Tria surely didn’t mind. Besides, Madeline had found
solace in the arms of a different pothead, with shaggy black hair
and a bad heavy metal band t-shirt of evil angels or something
else with dark wings. Madeline was happy and it made Tria happy.
It was another liberating chunk cut off the tip of her horn.
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The day came at the very end of the school year, the first weekend
in June, a week before the seniors graduated and a night after
the last debate team meeting of the year was adjourned. It was
the final match of the debate season, even though most debaters
wondered why it was still called a season if it ran from September
to June and this wasn’t one of the Earth’s Poles.
So impressed with Tria’s jabs and quiet confidence, the
team elected her up to bat. It was nerve-racking to say the least,
especially as tradition dictates the final meet of the year be
improvised. No topic given ahead of time, just kids with blank
index cards and overly stuffed minds.
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